I woke up to rain. I love the sound of rain. I love rain on a day when I don't have to get up early and can sleep until 10. I feel like God's favorite when I wake up and hear thunder and can go back to sleep because I know that, for that moment, it was just for me. However, I don't like how rain makes me feel.
From what I can tell, it is the rain that makes me hurt worse than normal. I have read different articles on the subject and most of them blame barometric pressure for the issue. Pressure drops when a storm hits and causes us to not have as much cushion in our tissues and lets us feel all the nasty pain that we don't always feel or feel but can deal with. On some days it makes me completely bedridden.
Usually I find relief in my bed because it is warm and cozy there. I actually write this from bed and find that my fingers and shoulders ache but my hips don't hurt as bad because they are warm. Warmth is the cure for rainy days. I have heard others say the same. One reason that fibromyalgia sufferers appear lazy is because they desire to stay in bed because it is warm there, and the warmth keeps us from feeling as bad. I hate appearing lazy.
And thus lies the conundrum that I face: Do I lie in bed all day or do I get up, even though it hurts, and accomplish something? Most days I choose the latter. This life is short. It is too short to spend the day in bed. I want to spend it with people that I love to spend time with. I want to enjoy every moment of this life, even if I have to spend it in pain. I do not want to end up a recluse who is depressed because I have been there and it wasn't fun.
I don't know why I have fibromyalgia. I have not figured out the cause of it. I am not sure how to fix it. What I do know is that there are good days and bad days. You can't appreciate the good days without having the bad days there as well. The bad days make the good days that much more good. So with that being said, I'm going to go enjoy this "bad day" even if I have to hurt to do it. That's what they make ibuprofen for...right?
